The man asked this straddling his bicycle and hopping to keep up with me, mostly still walking away. He'd ridden past me going the opposite way, but pulled a mid-sidewalk U-y.
"No. I don't speak Spanish" I answered him. I always get nervous when people on the street single me out to connect with. It's usually asking for change, or to use my phone; and I feel put in a difficult and scary situation either way.
"Oooohaaaah, okay... do you know... I need... v'runrun" (Okay, I don't know what that last word he used was. That's the way it sounded to me.
"Wha...?"
"Where can I get v'runrun?"
"I don't know what you're asking for -" I started to detach. There's something about my training that makes it very difficult for me to not listen to people.
"I am single. I need sex."
I don't know what it is about a t-shirt, mid length shorts that are too big for me and sneakers that makes me look like a prostitute. Or maybe he thought I knew where the red light district is.
"I'm sorry. I'm not a prostitute."
Interestingly he didn't feel all that creepy. But the fear it raised in me was significant. To an extent there isn't a big logical connection with the event and the fear, and then there also kind of is. What if me saying "no" was something he chose to ignore? I admit turning my back on him and walking away was nerve wracking. I wanted to turn and check behind me every second. I was hyper-vigilant noticing a pickup that turned into a parking lot in front of me then pulled up alongside me and rolled the window down. Then, when I walked past, it drove out of that lot and into the next one right in front of me. I also noticed other vehicles slowing way down near me while I was walking well away from the road, a guy at a bus stop who yelled after me as I walked past "Hey you wanna take a bus? Wanna take a bus?", a woman asking for spare change at a crosswalk for diapers, and a man stumbling toward me asking for something I didn't make out as I walked past without trying to understand him.
Adrenaline was strong enough that by the time I made it home, I felt like I was walking on a little spinning cloud. I also decided to carry my pepper spray in my hand.
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